Because Jason Mraz said so

I read somewhere on Jason Mraz's website which said that having a blog or journal will help in finding inner peace or finding your true self. 

Do YOU really know yourself? I don't think anyone does. But doesn't mean I can't try to step a little closer to see right? Put my face right up on the window...See but no touchy touchy. 

So why not eh?

He said to just blurt it all out. What ever you have on your mind at that moment, you should just write it right away. Of course you might want to think over it, but don't read over what you have written. 

Just let go. Go wild. Fly free. Slowmo run into the sunset and all that jazz - Gai. Lol. He is a crack up.

I think I might get distracted throughout writing this.

Today nothing much happened. Go to school and go out. I got my economics back. I'm not satisfied with what I got but whats done is done no? grr. Wheres Sheldon and his brain when you need him. Oh wait. I know where a Sheldon may be. She's at her home as of this moment. I'm also going to go see her tomorrow. Hehe Ming. 

Hm. Since this blog is called "The Yellow System" and since it's supposed to represent the sunny side of things or like just the happy and mellow times of our lives, why don't I write about things that makes me happy. (happy)

• When you're making a ball from tin foil and then there's this crunching noise. It's really nice noise.
  
• Looking at polished men clothing or suits. They just so much better when there's a girl to help them dress up. Nuff' said.
  
• I like clicking noise?
  
• Dreams. Both ways.
  
• Doodling. - Its a must for me. I do it when I'm bored or when I zone out which means its done in class time.
  
• I like to type on my (not really mine. Why cruel world?! I'm 18. I need one. kinda) lappy (laptop). It's called .... chromey? Or maybe I should name it smokey. You don't need to know why ;P
  
• When chocolate melts in your mouth. 
• Petting a cat.
• FRIENDS- They make me smile :)
  
• Family too - even though I kinda want to treat a certain 2 like a punching bag.  
  

Why am I'm like interested in these sort of things? the whole inner peace and soul searching thing? How your conscious thinks or how your subconscious behaves *wink wink* (INCEPTION. OH YEA. but whats more "oh yea" than Inception is ARTHUR/JOSEPH GORDON)

I want to know how my mind works. I want to know if I'm a nice person from the bottom of my heart. Am I persistent? calm? patient? Those are the words I would sometimes describe myself. But that's who I am because of the people I'm with. 

So who exactly am I when no one interferes? Who am I from the start to the end? Who is it exactly that has been inside me from when I was young and to when I might die?

ooooh scary stuff huh? makes one think. I don't even really know why I want to know. I think it might be because I want to be a better person. And if I figure this out, I will finally also find peace. But is it possible to go deep enough. Like a dream within a dream. I don't even know if  I'll be happy with what I'll find. 

We'll see. -Toodles- 

Yeah right. Like I'll end it that way. 

Good bye. Until next time.

P.S

Json Mraz is the shizz :D

Music - Panic at the disco - That Green Gentlemen

Mood - Blah, Curious, Lethargic 

OVER

Thats right..Mocks are finally over! Thank goodness. I am unbelivebly tired. After all that study I still don't think I did well. Oh well.

Now that mocks are over...I must celebrate it by posting up MORE pictures.

whhhheee~

Ain't this nice?

This.. was a wild night lol. 

Me (the one with the hat) : Hey Rachel. How you doing? (in joey like voice)

Cindy:*glares* Shes mine.

PARANORMAL ACTIVITY

Cindy: Its co chilly. Brrrr

Tian is a sneaky ghost. 

THE END

Of course not. 

This was taken ages ago, but I edited it just last night. I really like this

 picture.

Its a really great shot Tian!

Ah...the good old days. When year exams didn't really matter. When uniforms were annoying little things. 

What are you all looking at huh?

The end of memory lane part 1

So I was going through my folders today and I found this! 

DON'T JUDGE TIAN and JUMP into conclusion!

So...do you see the heart behind? Me and my friends are going to make one of t

hose for the school at the end of the year and put it up somewhere :)

This is our last year and me and nadeeja really wanted to do something and what better way than to have a great big heart for the school we love?

LOOK! There's that same heart again. Except some cool dude called kyhyun is in front of it. He IS pretty cool looking huh? Cooler than siwon and heechul.  REVENGE TIAN!!

So yea. Do you know what's funny though? while I was posting this exact picture, the song "sexy B...." by Akon was paying on my headphones! hahah.

Since I'm posting pictures up, I might as well post this one up huh?

 

Wow..Don't those two guys in the middle look a little tense?

 I think I have an idea about why. And it probably goes a little something like this...

Siwon and Hangeng: OMG OMG OMG Tian is coming this way!! I think I'm going to faint..

Hangeng: Oh my, I feel like I need to scratch something.. like the wall. And maybe I should make a music video about that! *fingers twitching* 

Donghae: Oh its Tian. Cool. As long as my dear Nadeeja isn't here. 

Kyhyun: This is boring. My gosh those two are TENSE. Talk about being a statue... It's Tian guys.. Relax. 

Just one word Tian. REVENGE. 

And heres soemthing for the monkey/dobe :P

Cloud: *sigh* I wish Bessie was here. 

:D

A start.

Hi blog!

Hmm this is my first blog post. What should I write? This feels weird. 

Ok. Maybe talking about my day and letting it all out should work..

Here it goes!

Full day today. I have my mocks on monday and I just started studying on friday. I am beat. actually, I'm beyond tired. I woke up and went to the library to study. And study I did, but it wasn't as productive as I hoped. Oh well. Lets hope today is different.

When I got back, I had to change becuase there was this "breaking fast" thing at the high com and there was lots food! But thats not important. I found out today and right then that my neighbour is leaving next week! 

They are the best neighbours you could ever ask for. Two cute babies.. a nice and loving mom. A cool as dad. Not only were they super nice, but they've been through alot and have always kept this peace and cheerful atmosphere about them. I love it!

I wish they didn't have to go, but nothing is frozen. I'm going to miss them and their kids :(

I can't say I'm used to it. People leaving I mean. It's always been me whose had to leave first. Its a strange position to be in because I'm helpless at where I stand. Things rush by much faster and theres alot less preparation. I also can't say I like it. And the thing is, even though I really like my neighbours, I'm so far away. I'm not that close to them personally, but I like them. 

Theres a language barrier between us. I can't speak bahasa melayu so well so I don't talk to them as much as I hope to. So when I say goodbye, it won't come out as close as I want it to be. It'll be one of those distant goodbye you get from people you don't know that well. One of those "Goodbye, I hope you have a great life back in Malaysia" and not the "I'm going to miss you. I'm glad I met you. I hope you all stay well. GOODBYE". Hmm. It's hard. 

Or maybe...I'm a coward. 

This is a pretty sad start to my blog. I'm already complaining or ranting. Sorry blog. :/ So much for being yellow huh? Lol.